Cosby 'Jane Doe' accuser tells her story

"Patricia" has long been included among the 30-plus women who have accused Bill Cosby of drugging and sexually assaulting them decades ago, but she's never told her story in public before.

Until now. Although she's still not revealing her last name or much of anything else about herself.

Still, she's talking, in BuzzFeed on Tuesday, in a story accompanied by a va-va-voom modeling picture of her taken in 1980, the year when she says Cosby, her then-mentor, gave her pills to "relax" her and then raped her while she was unconscious.

She believes it was the second time he had done it, she told BuzzFeed, and it spurred her to reject any further relationship with Cosby.

But it didn't spur her to tell anyone.

"I internalized the events with tremendous shame and far too much responsibility," she said. "I didn't think that anyone would believe me."

Besides, she believed that she might have been partially responsible for what had happened, and at the time powerful men were rarely challenged by women.

But she did agree to testify against Cosby in a civil lawsuit filed in 2005 by a University of Pennsylvania sports official, Andrea Constand, who accused Cosby of drugging and molesting her. Patricia was one of 13 "Jane Does" who never got to testify, because Cosby settled the suit.

BuzzFeed reported that Patricia is one of seven of the Jane Does who have come forward and told their stories publicly. In turn they are among the scores of women who have done the same in the last few months since the allegations against Cosby re-emerged and damaged his reputation and career.

He has denied all wrongdoing, has never been charged with a crime, and can't be criminally prosecuted on most of the accusations because the statutes of limitation have long expired.

Cosby's lawyers have declined to comment on most of the accusers, focusing instead on fending off various civil lawsuits filed by some of the women.

Cosby is in the midst of a comedy tour; some of his gigs have been canceled or postponed, but a Friday performance in Augusta, Ga., went well, according to reports.

Patricia says she's going semi-public now because she wants the other Jane Does to come forward and tell their stories, too, even at the risk of becoming part of the "media circus" surrounding the Cosby scandal.

"You're not alone," she said. "You don't have to keep this a secret anymore."

But it's no longer a secret anyway. Her story is similar to what other accusers have claimed, in episodes dating to the late 1960s.

The first time Patricia believes she was assaulted by Cosby was in 1978, soon after she met him at his alma mater, the University of Massachusetts. She says he invited her to a dinner party at his Shelbourne Falls, Mass., home, which turned out to be just the two of them, and served her a drink.

The next thing she knew, she says she was naked in a bed and he was standing over her in a robe, telling her she had thrown up and he had to wash her dress. She went home, throwing up all the way, but stayed in touch with Cosby, who promised to mentor her in the entertainment business.

Over the next 18 months, she says, he called her regularly, arranged acting lessons for her, sent her money to join a fitness club, took her to a Basketball Hall of Fame event, and to a comedy show in Wisconsin.

She finally realized that Cosby was interested in her sexually when she joined him at his hotel after a taping of the Dinah Shore Show. He insisted she take pills to "relax." She woke up the next morning, naked, sick and aware that she had been raped. She confronted Cosby, he grew furious and threw her out of his hotel suite.

Patricia now lives in Northern California, BuzzFeed says. She says her mistake when she was young was being too trusting.

"I had a lot of faith in authority figures like Cosby. I trusted them. I trusted them not to violate me."